Yup, you heard me right.
I've let go of my cares and discovered that when I really do 'cast the care' to Jesus, I'm actually left with nothing to care about. I've just moved my whole family from one side of the world to another in a matter of a few weeks and have walked through what has looked like an impossible situation to get here (here being California.) One of the biggest keys I've learned through this mammoth process is that when the number of impossibilities that you are facing hits a certain point, you either give up your vision - not recommended - or you say 'None of this is going to be possible in my own strength so I give up trying to figure out HOW it is going to happen and I'm just going to stick with the One Who does know!'
I had people actually say to me when we were in the process of moving 'I have no idea how you guys are going to do this! If you get there it will be an absolute miracle because I can't see a way that you can make it!' Praise God! Impossible is nothing to Him! I am still facing more hurdles now that we are here but with each step that I see His faithfulness displayed, another level of trust springs up in my heart for Him. I have no doubt that the reason we are where we are today has been from building on the faithfulness that God has displayed towards us over the past few years. We've been able to grow in our experiences with Him and just like the Israelites would build alters as a remembrance to the mighty acts that God had done in their midst, I have similar signposts in my life that I can refer to and say 'God was truly faithful and made a way when there was no way.'
To be honest, now that I've started really casting my cares (and not just saying I am but then continuing to worry about things anyway) I feel a bit 'out of sorts.' I mean, I've spent so much of my life worrying about things that I'm not sure what to do now that I've let them go and decided to let Jesus sort it out. It almost feels as though I'm doing something wrong. Like, is it really responsible for me just to not care about this stuff? I know the Bible says God has the hairs of my head numbered and knows my needs before I even ask and delights in giving me the kingdom, but can it really be THIS easy? Seriously, if I don't spend me time worrying, what other things could I spend my days doing? Creating? Dreaming?
Although I may still take awhile to get my head around this new lifestyle, I have every intention to stay on this new path of carefree living. It certainly helps with living in peace, even if it does feel a little naughty to say "I don't care anymore." I can't help but think that this may be a return to childlike faith. I mean, how many children spend their days worrying? My little boys who are 2 and 3 don't worry about anything, except perhaps who got the bigger bowl of ice cream at dinner. Worry is something we learn and I'm sure it has shortened countless people's lives as they've carried concerns that were not meant for them.
Don't get me wrong. I have by no means perfected this lifestyle yet, but I am certainly bouncing back faster and faster once I realize I've taken on board something that was never meant to be my burden to bear anyway. Jesus said His yoke was easy and His burden light. Most Christians I know are so weighed down with the cares of this world that they don't even have time to genuinely reach out to the people and situations that they SHOULD care about.
Since we've been here in California, my mind has felt as though it is undergoing almost continuous transformation. I'm not complaining, I'm just trying to keep up. I feel as though this 'carefree' thing is actually going to have a significant impact on how I live from here on, it's just in baby stages now so I think the long term results may take a little longer to see. For those of you who are reading this post, I dare you to just try it. Try truly 'not caring' about some of the dramas in your lives and see what happens. You may not be able to do it for more than a few minutes or hours at first but I promise you, it gets easier as you go and it's a much 'lighter' way to live. :)
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